Fridays

Every Friday I am left to do what I want if I did not existed to him. I cannot go to a certain club because he is going there, and I don't know what to think. Sometimes I am thinking he is going there because he wants to see or meet other women. Or is someone already waiting there? I have seen it many times how he flirts with others in front of my eyes, or is he just being friendly? On one occasion, we came together to a party, he greeted someone he knew and they just went off dancing together. I was just left standing there and felt hurt and furious and just bad. I could not say a thing this night. grrr, I better go back doing something before my thoughts absorb me too much.

Kerkeling ueber Rhythmus und Menschen

"Rhythmus und Tempo trennen die meisten Menschen auf dem Weg. Es ist schwer, jemanden zu finden, der in einem aehnlichen Takt ueber den Weg tanzt. [...] Erst muss man sich seines eigenen Tempos ganz sicher sein und kann sich dann vielleicht jemandem anschliessen. Die Pilger sind, fuehlen und denken, wie sie laufen." (From: Ich bin dann mal weg. Meine Reise auf dem Jakobsweg, 2006)