Fridays

Every Friday I am left to do what I want if I did not existed to him. I cannot go to a certain club because he is going there, and I don't know what to think. Sometimes I am thinking he is going there because he wants to see or meet other women. Or is someone already waiting there? I have seen it many times how he flirts with others in front of my eyes, or is he just being friendly? On one occasion, we came together to a party, he greeted someone he knew and they just went off dancing together. I was just left standing there and felt hurt and furious and just bad. I could not say a thing this night. grrr, I better go back doing something before my thoughts absorb me too much.